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March 26, 2013


Living with the Conflict in Hope and Sacrifice

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The Rev. Dr. Jo Bailey Wells has recently been appointed as Chaplain to the Archbishop of Canterbury. Until last year, she was Director of the Anglican Episcopal House of Studies at Duke Divinity School in, North Carolina. She has also served as consultant for Continuing Indaba at the Anglican Communion Office. This article was first published in the Church Times.

She reflects here upon what an Indaba lifestyle might look like.

“You are training people for a Church that doesn’t exist.”

This was the conclusion of a bishop checking up on his ordinands at Duke Divinity School in the United States. At first, I heard it as criticism. But then he clarified:

“You are training people for a Church that doesn’t exist . . . yet.”

He was responding to the mix of Episcopal and other Anglican students who studied happily side-by-side, within a much larger interdenominational student body, working constructively, despite their differences, when elsewhere in the Church, these differences seemed only destructive.

The Anglican Episcopal House of Studies at Duke was born in the midst of conflict, in the wake of the consecration of Bishop V. Gene Robinson. It welcomed students across the growing fissures of North American Anglicanism.

Real as these divides are — currently the Episcopal Church in the United States and the Anglican Church of North America are not in communion with each other — it determined that they need not be definitive when it comes to preparation for ministry, except for learning some habits of conflict-resilience. This can mean the resilience to attend to conflict: to take the risk of engaging in it, not so much to resolve it, but in the conviction that God might be found in its midst.

Conflict always seems to catch us by surprise, but scripture and tradition tell another story. It is normal in a world that is diverse, but fallen. Difference produces tension: thus conflict is normal, even though it is not ultimately definitive. Yet we fear it, deny it, and quash it. Perhaps especially where differences are valid, even good and well-principled, we are tempted to beat them into submission or to run away. They are just too threatening.

For the work of spiritual formation with ordinands, I came to discover conflict not merely as the norm, but as a gift. Uncomfortable as it may be, conflict serves as a prompt along the path to that mysterious quality of character which is the essential complement to the accumulation of knowledge and skill.

Conflict urges deep confrontation: with ourselves, with one another, and with God. It (usually) refuses easy resolution. We are bonded together by a common baptism, so it calls us on a journey together of ever-greater honesty, commitment, and vision. Parting is not an option: therefore the task of listening and lingering together becomes crucial.

As with the system of Indaba — the listening process being adopted in a variety of corners of the Anglican Communion, following a traditional African tribal model — we learned that an agreed framework helps.

At Duke, we developed some community rules. The first was respecting the fellowship of others: “Don’t say about X what you haven’t said directly to X.” The second was about participating: “Don’t sit on it; find the words to express your concerns.”

If honesty, commitment, and vision are three hallmarks for healthy engagement in conflict, then the habits for growing conflict-resilience could be described by the practices of lament, sacrifice, and hope. Such habits turn Indaba from a process into a lifestyle.

Lament is about fierce conversation — first and foremost with God. If the complaint has been poured out to God, then we have begun. We have begun to recognise God as the only true umpire, and to acknowledge ourselves as protagonists, with (at best) only feigned innocence.

Trust and transparency with God — even in anger, fragility, or despair — paves the pathway to the risk of trust and transparency with one another.

The reverse can also be true: I vividly remember two students at opposite poles of opinion, personality, and experience. They tentatively agreed to meet weekly to talk through their differences. One day, it had not gone well — each wondering how the other could dare to claim to be following Christ.

That evening, they met face-to-face at the communion rail equally fearful, one to administer the cup of salvation, and the other to receive it. They never came closer to agreement, yet they became mutually indebted, each binding the other closer to God as they united in lament for their brokenness.

Sacrifice follows from lament, the willingness to step into the gap between the way things are and the way they should be. God did not spare his own Son; conflict calls forth a self-giving that takes us to the very limit of what we think we can bear — perhaps beyond. We long for resolution yet we cannot create it unilaterally, thus any constructive outcome relies on ever greater measures of patience, as well as prayer.

We long for the other to change  yet, in the process of that very longing, we find ourselves changed — perhaps more aware of the self-denying demands of the cross and the need for the fruits of the Spirit (Galatians 5.22-3).

I recall one student screaming aloud in my office that he couldn’t take any more “conversation that seemed to go nowhere”, who, a year later, looked back on “a journey of self-offering” whereby he was called to relinquish control of outcomes, for the sake of praying more deeply the prayer of Jesus “that they may all be one” (John 17.21).

The commitment is not to “be right”; it is to what you will give, and give up, for the common cause of Christ. It is a commitment to shalom, to flourishing, for our opponents as for ourselves, knowing our future is bound up with theirs.

Between differing stripes of Anglican and Episcopal students — amid a wider climate of fear — an expression of shalom to the other might involve sacrifice.

One bishop suggested that this made his ordinands “unreliable”. Another student was nearly dropped from the ordination process for writing an irenic article expressing respect for the other side, as well as some critique of her own. We cannot be a Church without risk and sacrifice.

Nor can we function without hope. We are called to live into an alternate reality — that which God promised long ago, that for which Jesus died. The demand for sacrifice could warp us were it not for the larger frame on which our canvas is stretched.

We may not get to witness resolution, yet we affirm that the future is beyond our imagining. So with the practice of hope we may begin to find our tendency to cynicism supplanted by idealism.

It is then that our conflicts take their place among the changes and chances of this fleeting world, and we rest upon God’s eternal changelessness. It is then that we pause with thankfulness for some of the side-effects of conflict — by which we are deepened in some of the core practices of faith: lament, sacrifice, and hope.

It is then that we may find ourselves living into a different kind of Church, one that does not exist. . . yet.

  1. tgflux
    Mar 31 2013

    “currently the Episcopal Church in the United States and the Anglican Church of North America are not in communion with each other ”

    Does Dr Bailey Wells acknowledge that the latter was designed *expressly* to replace (and more or less extinguish) the former?

    Indaba-style dialogue&communion is definitely a commendable goal . . . but can ONLY occur when there is a clear understanding of the distances—in some cases, malevolent distances—needing to be crossed.

    Mar 27 2013

    I remember enrollment day in Union Biblical Seminary at Maharashtra (India). It was then I realised that Union meant ‘coming together’
    We had students from all the denominations that are in India and there are quite a few of those. My room mate every semester was a student from another region, different vernacular background, denomination and grade. At the end of six years, I could speak a few words from many different Indian languages. I began to respect the doctrines and the various worship forms we were exposed to. A lecture in Ethics or cultural studies or contextual theology was vibrant and over and ever exploding. However, once in the Dining Hall or on the sports field or other campus activities, all was community bonding. We learnt to live together. Now we interact with all those who are on Network sites and we visit each other whenever we are in the other person’s town.
    It helped me immensely, for I came back to serve Church of North India, a Union of six very different churches that took place in 1970.

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